Lyrics – Mirror Symmetry

Release date: June 4th, 2019
Genre: Death Metal/Grunge Rock/Nu Metal
Description: This album was meant to be a lot more accessible than previous albums. Rather than focusing on one genre/theme – I decided to write songs in a handful of genres. There is everything from death metal, to ska, to country, to 90’s rock, etc. The lyrics cover a wide variety of topics again, but include a lot of references to UFOs, societal expectations, getting old, etc. This album was written mostly around or after my 30th birthday which was a difficult transition, so there’s a reasonable amount of anxiety about the future in this album. My grandpa also died during the writing of this album, which was also an influence on a few of the songs/themes.
Most of the vocals were recorded using an AT-2020 condenser mic. The guitars were mostly recorded with an SM57, and bass mostly recorded with an M8000. Guitar amp is a Marshall valvestate with an EVH 5150 overdrive pedal for distortion and a Behringer TO800 pedal for extra punch. Bass was played through the same Marshall amp on a clean setting. Drums were recorded with a 57 on snare, and an Audix D6 on the kick and then some various tom/room mics. Drum samples were mixed in along with the original drum recordings for extra definition/better quality.
All songs were written, performed, recorded, produced, mixed, mastered, etc. by Stevil.

Every Single Second
I don’t think I know just what to do
I honestly don’t think I have a damn clue
I put in all this effort but it’s just a waste of time
Now all I do is bitch and try to put it in a rhyme
I don’t know what to do or say
I just wish everyone would go away
I tried so hard to get ahead
But in the end I’m better off dead
You put in all this effort and it makes you wanna scream
Wishing everything was just a bad dream
Open everything and everything becomes clear
You’ve been ignoring everything that you’ve ever had to fear
You have no idea what’s been going on
You’ve turned a blind eye to every last photon
It’s true what they do and they’re coming for you
And you have no idea what you’ve gotten into
You have no idea what to do, what to say
All the stupid things you’ve chosen to convey
Now your entire life has become a cliche
But you realize it never mattered anyway
Every sentance you have ever ended in a lie
Every time you’ve ever asked yourself why
Every time you try to make the problem disappear
Every last second of every single year

I don’t know who I’ve done this for
I can’t take this anymore
Your voice echoing in my head
Listening to everything you’ve said

Did we lose everything or have we actually won
Is it all over or has it just begun
Every single stupid thing we’ve ever tried to do
Every single second that I’ve ever spent with you
Every single thing that’s on your mind
Every single thing that we have to find
All of the times that we could have won
All the stupid things that we should have done
Every single thing that you wanted to be
Every single thing that you can’t see
Everyone that you’ve ever known
Every time that you’ve ever wanted to be alone
All the stupid things that we could do
Every single thing that now affects you
Looking back and wondering why
Every single thing you wanted to try

I don’t know who I’ve done this for
I can’t take this anymore
Your voice echoing in my head
Listening to everything you’ve said
I don’t know who I’ve done this for
I can’t take this anymore
Your voice echoing in my head
Listening to everything you’ve said

I Will Not Go
I Don’t understand why you won’t listen to me
All the things I’ve said and yet you cannot see
I’m starting to think that I’m doing something wrong
Maybe you are the one that’s been right all along

I tried to tell you that I will not go
Yet you’re the only one that does not know
If you want to see me then here’s a video
Cuz I won’t be there today or tomorrow

You are the only one that doesn’t understand
How things have gotten so completely out of hand
Go ahead and tell me all of the things you wanna say
Cuz there’s not a single chance that I’ll be there today

I tried to tell you that I will not go
Yet you’re the only one that does not know
If you want to see me then here’s a video
Cuz I won’t be there today or tomorrow

[bridge]

I tried to tell you that I will not go
Yet you’re the only one that does not know
If you want to see me then here’s a video
Cuz I won’t be there today or tomorrow
I tried to tell you that I will not go
Yet you’re the only one that does not know
If you want to see me then here’s a video
Cuz I won’t be there today or tomorrow

I Don’t Know Why
Waiting here as the days go by
It never mattered how hard you tried
I don’t know maybe this is a dream
I don’t know just what they mean
Sitting here thinking of what to say
I don’t know what to do today
I don’t know how to explain
For some great reason you keep me sane

I don’t know why
All the things I try
All up in the sky
But I still don’t know why
I don’t know why
All the things I try
All up in the sky
But I still don’t know why

Asking these questions over again
Staring at the floor you count to ten
I don’t know what to do this time
Trapped inside this repeating rhyme
Waiting here as the hours go by
Not even sure if I should try
I don’t know just what you mean
I’ll never know that this was a dream

I don’t know why
All the things I try
All up in the sky
But I still don’t know why
I don’t know why
All the things I try
I don’t mean to pry
But I still don’t know why

Here For You
They’ve tried so hard to tell you but you just can’t see
All the clues they’ve left you as to what they might be
You tried so hard to figure out what to do
You tried to forget but they remind you

You won’t stand for this anymore
Yet you don’t even know what they’re here for
You don’t know quite know what to do
The only thing you know is that they’re here for you

You can try to run but you cannot escape
You can only watch as their plan takes shape
You’re frozen in place as they come down from the sky
You go your whole life never knowing why
They take you away from everything you know
You’re never quite sure where you’re about to go
You’re not sure what you should do
The only thing you know is that they’re coming for you

You won’t stand for this anymore
Yet you don’t even know what they’re here for
You don’t know quite know what to do
The only thing you know is that they’re here for you
You won’t stand for this anymore
Yet you don’t even know what they’re here for
You don’t know quite know what to do
The only thing you know is that they’re here for you

Getting Old
You’re getting old but you wish you could stop
Life is like a mountain and you don’t know what’s on top
You’d do anything to be 20 again
Having fun with all of your friends
You miss being little with your whole life still ahead
You’re not looking forward to being old and dead
Will we ever learn who put us here and why
And what the hell happens after we die

I feel so fucking old
My back fucking hurts and I’m always fucking cold
I feel so fucking old
And I’m getting fucking older from what I’m told
I feel so fucking old
My back fucking hurts and I’m always fucking cold
I feel so fucking old
And I’m getting fucking older from what I’m told

You don’t wanna get older than you are now
Every day that goes by you ask yourself how
Everyday that goes by things start to change
You become boring and friends become estranged
Life has begun to take it’s toll on me
My hearings getting worse and it’s getting hard to see
Why can’t everything just stay exactly the same
That’s what I want more than fortune or fame

I feel so fucking old
My back fucking hurts and I’m always fucking cold
I feel so fucking old
And I’m getting fucking older from what I’m told
I feel so fucking old
My back fucking hurts and I’m always fucking cold
I feel so fucking old
And I’m getting fucking older from what I’m told

Moron
All of the things that I have to do
I have no time to see this through
Wishing that I could start again
Thinking of everywhere that I’ve been

I don’t know what to say or do
Is anything here remotely true
Have I imagined what’s going on
Or maybe I am just a moron

I don’t know if anything’s real
Now I don’t know just how to feel
I have no idea if I should stay
I guess none of this matters anyway

I don’t know what to say or do
Is anything here remotely true
Have I imagined what’s going on
Or maybe I am just a moron

I don’t know what to say or do
Is anything here remotely true
Have I imagined what’s going on
Or maybe I am just a moron

All The Things
You… You can decide everything so easily
You just look around and see everything you wanna be
I… I try but I never get anywhere
I have come to realize that I just do not care

All of the lies that I said to you
All of the plans that they made for you
All of the things that they said to you
All of the things that they asked you to do

Tell me all the things that you wanna say to me
Tell me all the things that you think that I should be

All of the lies that I said to you
All of the plans that they made for you
All of the things that they said to you
All of the things that they asked you to do

They keep trying but they never get ahead
Nothing ever happens in spite of all that’s said

All of the lies that I said to you
All of the plans that they made for you
All of the things that they said to you
All of the things that they asked you to do
All of the lies that I said to you
All of the plans that they made for you
All of the things that they said to you
All of the things that they asked you to do

Traffic
The older you get the more boring you become
Forgetting how to socialize or just have fun
Everyone says that it’s time to settle down
Time to get a real job and stop acting like a clown
You’re ready for something else
Ready to do something for yourself
You don’t need much but there’s one thing you can do
You wanna try something bold and new

I wanna convince you to go play in traffic
So I can point and laugh at you, you stupid asshole
I wanna convince you to go play in traffic
So I can point and laugh at you, you stupid asshole

You watch as the years go by one by one
The box this world has put you in has made you wanna run
You tried so hard to put it all aside
You just want a place where you can run and hide
Ready to give up and ready to give in
You know that you can’t let the world win
You don’t need much but you need something new
You realize there is one thing you can do

I wanna convince you to go play in traffic
So I can point and laugh at you, you stupid asshole
I wanna convince you to go play in traffic
So I can point and laugh at you, you stupid asshole
I wanna convince you to go play in traffic
So I can point and laugh at you, you stupid asshole
I wanna convince you to go play in traffic
So I can point and laugh at you, you stupid asshole

You’re Not Fooling Anyone
You wanna see what you can do
You want a part of what’s owed to you
You realize it doesn’t matter how
The only thing that matters is now

You tried so hard to get ahead
You listen to all the things they’ve said
You’re not going anywhere till this is done
You know that you’re not fooling anyone
You tried so hard to get ahead
You listen to all the things they’ve said
You’re not going anywhere till this is done
You know that you’re not fooling anyone

You work your entire life away
Putting in your hours as you lose half the day
Losing all this time that you’ll never get back
All these days going by and you’re losing track

You tried so hard to get ahead
You listen to all the things they’ve said
You’re not going anywhere till this is done
You know that you’re not fooling anyone
You tried so hard to get ahead
You listen to all the things they’ve said
You’re not going anywhere till this is done
You know that you’re not fooling anyone

The Full Extent
Sitting by waiting for all of this to end
You can try to tell us that it’s all pretend
Every second passing by every hour of every day
Waiting like a pillar for this all to go away

You will not move cuz you do not understand
Watching us as we struggle to come up with a plan
You will never see the full extent of this
Losing all the things that you’ll never have to miss

You will never see what you’ve done to us
All of the people that you’ve thrown under the bus
You don’t have to care when it doesn’t affect you
But when this is all over we’ll be coming for you

You will not move cuz you do not understand
Watching us as we struggle to come up with a plan
You will never see the full extent of this
Losing all the things that you’ll never have to miss

Complicate/Infiltrate/Decimate
Everything that you’ve done today
Everything that you’ve had to say
Everything that you’ve tried to do
But it still ends up that the blame’s on you

I am going to complicate
I am going to infiltrate
I am going to decimate
I am going to replicate
I am going to dominate
I am going to subjugate
I am going to annihilate
I am going to immolate

You’re not going anywhere
You’ve had all this time to prepare
Moving forward ready to declare
You’ll never make it out of this I swear

Everything that you’ve done today
Everything that you’ve had to say
Everything that you’ve tried to do
But it still ends up that the blame’s on you
Everything that you’ve done today
Everything that you’ve had to say
Everything that you’ve tried to do
But it still ends up that the blame’s on you

I am going to complicate
I am going to infiltrate
I am going to decimate
I am going to replicate
I am going to dominate
I am going to subjugate
I am going to annihilate
I am going to immolate

You’re not going anywhere
You’ve had all this time to prepare
Moving forward ready to declare
You’ll never make it out of this I swear

Everything that you’ve done today
Everything that you’ve had to say
Everything that you’ve tried to do
But it still ends up that the blame’s on you
Everything, Everything, Everything, Everything

Everything You Thought Was True
I have told you everything you want me to say
I have told you everything you want today
You have told me everything you thought was true
You have told me everything I knew about you

Trapped in a moment you’re not ready to share
Stuck in all the times that you acted on a dare
Searching for the truth you look all around
Checking every answer, checking every ground
Digging to deep now you can’t walk away
Disregarding all the things everyone has to say
Focusing on all the things you hope to find
You slowly realize it was always in your mind

I have told you everything you want me to say
I have told you everything you want today
You have told me everything you thought was true
You have told me everything I knew about you

You lost everything that you hoped to find
Losing everything like you’re going blind
Doesn’t matter anymore, you don’t even care
Forgetting everything that you wanted to share
Listening to everything you have to say
Wishing that you would just go away
I cannot take this anymore
Watching everything that’s come before

I have told you everything you want me to say
I have told you everything you want today
You have told me everything you thought was true
You have told me everything I knew about you
I have told you everything you want me to say
I have told you everything you want today
You have told me everything you thought was true
You have told me everything I knew about you

You Don’t Know Why
All of the things that I said to you
It’s all irrelevant
All of the times that I asked myself how
I ended up in this predicament
Fueled by apathy and introspection
You set yourself up to fail
I never wanted this to be the end but life’s too short and frail

What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me

You don’t know why, you don’t know why, you don’t know why, you don’t know why

Waking up not knowing what’s going on
You don’t know what to do
Can’t comprehend what’s happening
No time to think this through
Waiting for the answers to come to you
Or accept that there are none
Nobody knows what happens to you
Once this is all done

What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me

You don’t know why, you don’t know why, you don’t know why, you don’t know why

What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me
What is happening to me
All the things I wanted to be
All the things I wanted to see is changing me